Reflections of a Young Mother: September 2011

Alright so if you know me in any way more than just an acquaintance you know how completely obsessed i am with the king of pop, Michael Jackson. I know what your thinking and i honestly don't care. Michael was the most incorrectly judged and looked down upon person in the entetainment world, which is something i don't understand at all. How can you be so completely famous and amazing to so many people, while at the same time being so hated and in the hot seat? Not many people took the time to really try to find who Michael Jackson really was. No one listened to what he was really trying to say, instead they completely turned on him. All Michael wanted from this life was to love and be loved. He tried to teach us how to help others and be selfless, so why didnt we listen? I was watching TV the other day and the news was showing clips from the trial of Michael's previous Dr that was actually with him at the time of his death, he is now on trial for his murder. So i basically found out that the Dr knew he was dead, but not only that, instead of calling the police, he called the head of Michael's security to tell him what had happened. Um, hello?! What are you thinking!! And after all was said and done he actually asked to be let back in the house to hind sme cream michael wouldnt want the world to know about, what i liar! I just dont understand why people are so greedy for money and so mean in their hearts that they could kill, or help assist in killing someone like Michael, or anyone at all. I just couldn't imagine. It was always a dream of mine to see Michael in concert, that'll never happen now. But he will always be missed and he will live on through his music forever.

“If you enter this world knowing you are loved and you leave this world knowing the same, then everything that happens in between can be dealt with.”

-Michael Jackson

Ok, first off i would like to simply apologize for the complete amount of BORING this first blog will consist of. All general backround lad-de-da-de-da. First and most important i am a 20 yr old mother, yes i said mother, to a beautiful little angel. Her name is Caydence, she is my world and without her i am honestly nothing at all. She is such a little diva! Also as smart as any baby i've ever seen, but i know you think i just say that because i'm her mother. I never had anything to look forward to in life before i saw her precious little face, i can't wait to watch her grow up into a beautiful young woman and become so much more in this world than i can say i have become. I really hope her independent attitude contiues, she will go far with that. She sure does make me smile. Her dad, my husband, is also pretty special to me as well. I never thought i was capable of loving or being so loved before i met Cliff. We were married on September 3, 2011 after being together for 3 years. He's the hardest working man i know, besides my daddy :), he is a great provider and wonderful father. He treats me like gold even though i know i dont deserve quite that much. I do my best to give him the same in return but i can always do better. I thank God he loves me just the way i am. I also have a wonderful family standing behind me always. My mom and i have definitely had our ups and downs but i love her more than anything, she is always on my side and does a lot for me. I dont think she knows how much i really appreciate her and what she does but maybe one day she will understand. My dad, who legally adopted me in August 2011, has always been my dad. Im so glad we found each other and i feel so lucky to have a father in my life like him. My sister is 7 years younger than me but we have always been close, we are complete opposites but she has no idea how much i wish i could be like her. Weird huh? If only you understood how kind hearted and beautiful she is. I really hope she has everything this world has to offer. My brother and i are only 18 months apart and were very close growing up, i guess life got in the way of that. We've gone our seperate ways and are living our own lives but when we do see each other its like nothing has ever changed. His daughter, Kiley, well lets just say she is who she is. A 3 yr old pistol. I worry about her sometimes but something always tells me she will be just fine. She has always been very close to my heart. I work at Starbucks in weaverville, whooo BARISTA! I love my job and the people i work with, our attitudes and ideas clash from time to time but ultimately we have a good time. It's not exactly what i see myself doing in life but its money for now. Im not exactly sure what i wanna do with my life anymore, yeah im at that point in my life. I know thats not a very good idea seeing as i have a child to provide for but i know she will always be taken care of. Ill make sure of that. Well, i think i've given enough basic life information for the moment. Of course i have much more to tell, but they will all come apparent in my later posts. I hope you keep reading!